GOODBYE 2017, HELLO 2018

2017 has been quite an interesting year. I have done so much, and there is still so much that I want to learn and do.

I mentioned before how I am an author who suffers from a chronic illness called fibromyalgia. There are so many days that I want to leave the writing behind. The pain sometimes gets so bad, but I have made so many accomplishments this year.

I joined RWA and RWA NYC in January 2017. I was welcomed with open arms by supportive people. Authors and writers at all stages of the game, all simply wanting to share their love of romance by painting their words onto their pages. I have been afforded so many opportunities like the RWA LIRW annual conference which put me in the path of an agent I am interested in. I was one of the attending RWANYC authors at the Brooklyn Book Festival, a festival that I’ve been to many times. I was able to have my first ever romance reading from one of my novellas. And those things were possible simply because I’m a member of RWA, interacting with genuine and helpful people.

From a writing aspect this was more of an experimentation year for me. I wrote stories simply to see if I can do it. I wrote them and learned what I needed to work on, and what is more my niche. I also was able to step outside of my comfort zone. Learning my strengths and the things I need to get better at with my writing as I continue down the author path. I also won a Summer Indie Book Award, getting first place in diversity for my novella CATCH ME IF I FALL. It was an honor and a shock. One that also confirmed that I was on the right path. I hope I can continue to do the same.

On a personal note, I am a mom of three cubs as I call my children, I was able to still get my bachelor’s degree in developmental psychology. My oldest and middle cub both had graduations right after mine, and I was in awe how I was still able to make sure that they were on top of their game when it came to their school work, and still manage to graduate magna cum laude.

I say these things, not to toot my own horn, but more to look back on what I’ve been able to accomplish over the years. I was so stressed about what I had to do, that I had to sit back and really look back on the things I did get done. And while there were many bumps on the road, they still got done.

I have plans for 2018. I am still working out what and when, but I do have plans. I do have goals that I want to achieve that would further my career as an author. I want to try new things with my voice and break molds. I want to be confident in every move I make next, and I am ready.

Nevertheless, she persisted. My motto that I used for 2017, and I tend to use it for 2018 with a slight amendment. Which one? I’m not quite sure yet. But, I am ready and excited for what’s to come next for me.♥


2017 Goals!

Happy New Year Everyone!

We are 8 days in to 2017. New year! New goals! New Aspirations.

I decided to participate in an #Instagram challenge (#igauthorlifejan) and one of the days requested that all those who participated share what their resolutions or goals were.

So here are my goals for 2017

Publish 3 Works

I’m currently working on my newest novellete which will be called Breathe You. This story is dedicated to a friend of mine, so it has some meaning for me. The next one will be my try at a rock star story. I wanted to do one just to see if I could, so I hope it comes out the way I envision it. The last is Book 2 of The Kim Brother’s Series. I just realized Book 1 on December 30, 2016. Book 2 deals with the middle brother David. And he is very different from Jae, so I’m excited about these for the year.

Take Better Care Of Myself

I know I haven’t taken the best of care of myself. I have fibromyalgia (chronic pain) long with a host of other things, and I know my body is paying for it. Yes, I do what I can, but sometimes I lay awake in pain hoping I can finally get a decent amount of sleep. I’m thinking of putting yoga as something to help during the week. Maybe two times a week.

Self Discovery

I think you are never too old for discovering things about yourself. Your likes. Dislikes. Favorite things to do. What you want to do with your life? It’s so many things. The next day isn’t promised to any of us. So, this year it is a goal of mine to make sure I learn as much as I can about myself.

Graduate with my bachelor’s degree

At the end of the month I will start my last semester of college. I should have gotten my degree in 2009. My bachelors. Life happened. Some of it because of choices I made, and others because of other situations. Anyway I went back to school in 2007 to get my associates, and I finished it in a year. I told myself  one day I will get my bachelor’s so after two and a half years (5 semesters), I will graduate in June and I’m so happy about it.

Know my WORTH

I think this is the most important goal for me. I have a habit of not realizing what I am and what I’m capable of. What I give off into the world doesn’t necessarily register with others because I’m giving. Now this is not to toot my own horn, I know I give so much sometimes that I’m empty. This year my focus is to appreciate me. Appreciate my flaws, Appreciate all the things that makes me “Kay” and know that if someone can’t handle me at my worst. If someone can’t see my worth, than they no longer need to be in my life, my space or in my aura. I refuse to waste time on people who doesn’t give a damn about me no matter the relationship. So definitely knowing my worth is quite important.

Write horror story via Wattpad

If you know me well enough then you will know that horror is my first love. I love reading horror books and watching horror movies. I love horror so much that I even listen to audio horror on YouTube. Anyway while I do write romance, I do want to dabble in horror. Stephen King is my favorite author of all time. I feel I should do many shorts on Wattpad as a horror collection to see if I can do it. If it goes the way I want to, I will publish a horror story as I would my romance stuff.

Make Awesome Memories

2016 I was fortunate to be at a book signing, speak on a panel and meet many other authors who I have made friendships with. I have hung out with people and tried new things. 2017 is no different. I want to make the memories for the days when I feel like crap, I have something to look back on like man, this was a great day.

I hope that if any of you have any goals, that you try your best. I wish you all the luck and light.

Until next time!!

Kay 🙂

When being strong is too much…

“You don’t know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have.”

I have been told that I was the strongest person that people knew. At first it didn’t bother me because of all the situations that required that of me, didn’t leave me with much of a choice.

In my twenty something years old life I have had so far, I have some pretty crazy cards dealt my way. There are some situations that I thank God every day for helping me through them and keeping me sane.

However, the most recent time that sentiment was shared with me, I was a bit peeved. I didn’t know why at first. It has been said to me tons of times. “You’re strong, you’ll get through this” or “you are the strongest person I know”. The thing is sometimes I don’t want to be so strong that my problems or issues get brushed off.

Sometimes I want to throw something, cry, scream and someone say for once it is okay to not be strong. That just this one time, you don’t have to be. Let me clarify and say that I do have a group of people around me who are always there if I needed and I am a lucky woman for having that, but even in that group I am called the strong one. The one who can get through anything.

I don’t think having strength is a bad thing, but sometimes I believe that it makes people see your problems or issues not warranting for too much concern because you are a strong person and can “handle anything.”

So now I ask, am I the only person who sometimes feel that being too strong of a person is sometimes a bad thing?

What are your thoughts on that issue? I would love to hear it.